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Life is complex at the moment.
Last week was hard, in that way that dealing with bereavements is. Funeral etc went off well, and everything went as well as can be expected, given the situation. But it was tiring.
Now we're in a state of flux again - looking at making some short term living arrangement changes, that would allow us to a) live together all the time, b) live in Christchurch again and c) have access to a spa. Which sounds lovely.
It would sound more lovely if I could source a queen sized mattress in better shape than the torture-bed we have been sleeping on. Our king can't really be moved there, and that mattress is verging on dangerous. Anyone have one for sale/loan?
It also feels a bit like a giant wallpapering over the hole we don't talk about anymore. Nice, but....
We keep trying to find various ways out of the giant hole we accidentally fell in, but sometimes it feels like all ways out move glacially. And yes, I'm being a bit cryptic. Suffice it to say that nothing is moving at all fast on any front, despite our best and sometimes desperate efforts.
And it's been a year. A whole damn year, or near enough to.
Today there was sleet. Cold, wet, nasty sleet, and icky wind-chill factor. I wasn't even supposed to have to live through last year's Canterbury winter.
My resentment simmers not-entirely-quietly of late.
On the plus side, it is nice to have Dan home, and off work for a bit. It's not a real holiday, where we do holiday things and leave the real world behind, like we planned, unfortunately. But on the other hand, he wasn't actually due home for another three days, so.....
Last week was hard, in that way that dealing with bereavements is. Funeral etc went off well, and everything went as well as can be expected, given the situation. But it was tiring.
Now we're in a state of flux again - looking at making some short term living arrangement changes, that would allow us to a) live together all the time, b) live in Christchurch again and c) have access to a spa. Which sounds lovely.
It would sound more lovely if I could source a queen sized mattress in better shape than the torture-bed we have been sleeping on. Our king can't really be moved there, and that mattress is verging on dangerous. Anyone have one for sale/loan?
It also feels a bit like a giant wallpapering over the hole we don't talk about anymore. Nice, but....
We keep trying to find various ways out of the giant hole we accidentally fell in, but sometimes it feels like all ways out move glacially. And yes, I'm being a bit cryptic. Suffice it to say that nothing is moving at all fast on any front, despite our best and sometimes desperate efforts.
And it's been a year. A whole damn year, or near enough to.
Today there was sleet. Cold, wet, nasty sleet, and icky wind-chill factor. I wasn't even supposed to have to live through last year's Canterbury winter.
My resentment simmers not-entirely-quietly of late.
On the plus side, it is nice to have Dan home, and off work for a bit. It's not a real holiday, where we do holiday things and leave the real world behind, like we planned, unfortunately. But on the other hand, he wasn't actually due home for another three days, so.....
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Date: 2010-06-09 06:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-06-09 10:50 am (UTC)We will see what happens in the longer term (I'm starting to think I should make this my motto...)
Hope your holiday is going as awesomely as it sounds in your posts :-)
C.