Mar. 24th, 2010

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I'm feeling a LOT better about the world in general.

It's not that anything has really changed - our lives are still completely ridiculous. It's just that I kind of had a philosophical moment where I decided that I was sick of being beaten around by life, and cowering, so I was going to meet it head on.

I will do what I can with what I can, and accept that which I cannot do anything about at present. And yeah, fuck it, I'll fight, and try and beat my life back into something I'd actually like to live in, as much as I can. I'm sick of waiting passively around, for things to get better. I shall make it better, even in small ways, if I can't in big ways.

In things I have been doing lately: not a lot. I went and tried to fix my Grandmother's computer, without very much success, pretty much because it's 11 years old and running Windows ME, which was weird long before it got so out of date. I am now looking at sourcing her a somewhat less ancient, but not excessively filled with features computer. If you, or someone close to you has such a thing available for sale, let me know (desktop, just for internet/email/word processing pretty much, running XP well I think, reliable, slim profile a bonus).

I made hamburger patties, slightly experimentally, and confirming a pet theory of mine. My hamburger pattie/meatball research is now nearly complete, which is nice, because it's quite adaptable to different applications.
I do wish LJ would allow me to add creepy lighting, dramatic music and nicely timed lightning bolt here, because I so desperately want to say "I have created...{dramatic pause}...the perfect meatball! {maniacal laughter}"
Sadly though, theatrical effects are unavailable.

And I've seen my sister and brother in law and littlest neice, the first time since Christmas. In the intervening timespan she has mastered walking, and is even becoming a little teeny bit naughty. And it's a bit weird, but that's super nice to see, after all the hospital stuff last year, when she was so quiet and sleepy and sort of creepily doll-perfect whenever she wasn't crying or seizing.

Tomorrow I have plans to take a really long luxurius shower, and to do some yoga for the first time in ages, possibly not in that order. And then, I think I'm going to try and write myself some personal, non-packing, non-moving, non-reliant on location/space/specific items goals. Things that will make me feel happier and more fulfilled. And then I'm going to write a plan to accomplish some of them.

I'm looking forward to it.

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